Letters to Hope

Well a lot has happened since last I wrote.  I have been busy and so have you.

The other day you fell and cut your eye brow. You needed stitches and Dr. Jason gave them to you.  You where very brave and although you were screaming your little head off it was only for a short time and then it was over.  You got two stitches and then 6 days later they took them out and although you screamed again like a crazy woman you were still brave and it only took a second.  You now have a little scar on your eyebrow.  We are going to work on putting Vitamin E oil on it and hopefully it will not be a scar for long.

You were helping me water the plants outside and tripped on the rug and hit the table that is outside. Daddy picked you up and there was blood and you where crying but not too bad I had to hold you the whole time… Daddy was very scared and nervous but thank goodness I was calm and we got you to the hospital with no real issue. Of course once everything calmed down and we all knew you where ok then I freaked out a little but was calm while it was happening. Your poor eye swelled totally shut and it was all black and blue but less then a week went by and it was completely heeled.  I meant to take a picture of you with your first “real” booboo but kept forgetting and it cleared up so fast.

You have totally reverted backwards with the potty training and it is like starting from scratch.  You are so used to the pull-ups you ask me for them now.  It is not good but I am hoping you will be potty trained soon.

I am making preparations for us to move into the townhouse.  Your dad and I have agreed that he will take Camellia Street and you and I will move to Via Jardin.  It is a much smaller house but perfect for the two of us.  You will of course still have your beautiful room here with him and will have the large backyard to play in and the house will be pretty much the same except we are taking some of the furniture but I think it will be fine.  You will be starting school in January (maybe) and Daddy will pick you up after school on Monday and Tuesday and on Wednesday and Thursday you will stay at school until I get out of work and on Friday I will pick you up early.  I think it will work out great. I have started thinking of how to re-do the townhouse so we both like it. You will like it there we will have a pool very close by and a playground and I am sure lots of little kids to play with.  Eventually I hope to move to Jupiter and buy a bigger house for the both of us but for now this will work out well.  You will be close to dad and the bills will be cheaper for me.  I will miss this house… we put a lot of work into it and I poured a lot of feeling into it. It is almost exactly how I want it and I wanted to stay in this house until you had moved out and gone to college, but it is just too big for just you and I.  We will be fine though J I am not worried.

Daddy and I have been getting along a lot better lately and I think (hopefully) we will become good friends and you will never see that we had ever been upset with each other.  It is a choice I really hope that he makes along with me.

You are talking so much and now are starting to really talk back to me in a negative and a positive way. You have also become crazy clingy to me and tell me often that you are scared of things… like Hippo’s, snakes, and other random things.  I think this is your imagination kicking in and not realizing what is real and what is not.  There is no reason to be scared precious child I will always protect you.