Letters to Hope

You are finally asleep after 30 minutes of whaling your lungs out.

Last night you and I where in a car accident. You where not hurt and either was I but the car is messed up and I am sure that it will expensive to fix. We were very lucky.

We where heading to Chee Chee’s house for a three day visit when I slipped in the rain and the car ran off the road and into a whole bunch of trees. We were going 80 miles an hour and are very lucky that the car did not flip over.

You where screaming but once I picked you up you were fine. We did not get home until 11:30 which at that time you passed out. This whole day you have been off schedule and very grumpy. I am a little sore and I am wondering if you are also.

No More Road Trips for a While

I decided that we are not going to make that long trip until I can tell you and you understand that we will be in the car for a long time or until someone else can go with us.

I know that your father will never come but mommy is making new friends and maybe they will want to come with us some time.

You have just been growing so fast and talking sooo much. Besides today, when you where very grumpy and clingy, you have been wonderful. You love to play outside and you love books, you talk to me first thing in the morning and you know what sound a dog, cow, and cat make you also know how old you are and you can help me unload the dishwasher.

You get mad when I try to take something away but 80% of the time if I ask you nicely you will give it to me.

Still Freaked Out About the Car Accident

Today I am a little freaked out about the car and about the accident. I keep closing my eyes and seeing it all happen.

I am happy to know that I seriously doubt you will remember any of this and that is a good thing because it was scary. I love you so much and I am so grateful that you are alright. I am crying as I type this because the thought of a single hair on your head getting hurt just kills me. I love you and will do anything to protect you.

I am so sorry when I loose my temper or I yell at your for no reason. I am trying and I will keep trying to make myself better so that I am a better parent. I want you to always know that you are perfect in every way. I love you.