Letters to Hope

I am not in the best of moods today despite my wonderful child inside me.

There is a person in my life that I know by the time you read this will not even matter to me, but at the moment I am miserable with her existence. She makes my life a living hell and I can not stand to even be in the same room with her.

I know that in your life you will meet people like this and I wish I could protect you from them all but you will soon learn I can’t, There really are evil, cruel, rude, obnoxious people in this world and there is 100% NOTHING you can do about it.

I despise this person so much that she makes me want to change careers. I know I can not do this because of the opportunity this company allows me and the luxuries of working here and being able to take time off to be with you is way more important then this terrible person. But it does not help in the fact that I have to deal with her on a daily basis.

You Calm ME

On to a better subject. Talking to you is calming me.

Your dad and I went to see you on the ultra sound and you where very cute and moving around a lot. I had no idea you moved that much. But your legs where crossed and we could not see if you where a girl or a boy, which was very frustrating.

I want to know what you are so I can start shopping. My mom has gone Crazy with buying things for you and I have not even started. I have not even started on your room. I have so many things to order once I know if you are a girl or a boy.

Just Healthy, Please

It does not really matter I want you to be healthy that is all, but once I know what you are I can gear my thoughts to boy stuff or girl stuff. Well I go next week again to see if we can tell, something about them not getting a good reading on your heart although I think that was just an excuse to have me come in again because the lady knew how frustrated we both where with the fact that we could not tell what you where.

Sometimes I Feel You… Maybe

I think sometimes I feel you but I am not sure if that is you or not. The past couple of nights my arms have been falling asleep and it has been freaking out. Like when I sleep they fall asleep and it wakes me up and I have to walk around to wake them up.

Very weird but I called the doctor and he said that this was normal and not to worry and to drink some wine. I feel guilty about drinking wine with you. Who knows how much is too much.

All the doctors and my friends say even a glass a day is fine but I normally do not drink that much so I am not going to start with you.