Letters to Hope

We had a good day today!

You went to the park and played well with all the other kids, this morning I cleaned the porch and you played very well on your own in your sand box and with the dog, you are doing well with both playing by yourself and with others.

I Hate That One Day You Will Learn Not Everyone is Nice

There were three little boys at the park and you so badly wanted to play with them, but they where much older then you and were not interested. I hate the fact that one day you are going to learn that not all kids are nice and not all kids, no matter how nice you are to them, will be nice to you.

I wish I could save you from this terrible truth, because you ARE such a loving and wonderful person and because you so badly want to be friends with everyone. I hope you do not become cynical because of these situations and you always keep that loving sprit.

I love the little girl you are becoming and how much you are learning and growing, and although at times you test me with saying No NO NO and with now allowing me to do certain things. (like brush your teeth) you are forever amazing to me because you randomly run up and give me a hug and kiss and you always want to snuggle and you’re testing me does not last too long and you never hold a grudge. I have never seen you mean or spiteful and I hope you never learn or become that.

I hope you do not learn the screaming from me although I do scream at you sometimes and I am sorry I hope I can break the habit so you do not scream at your kids.

Maybe I’ll Turn This Journal into a Book For You?

I thought about making this whole thing into a book for you and giving it to you on your 18th birthday I would have to contact and editor I think to make sure this all makes sense but I think you would appreciate it and realize that your mom is just a human being trying the best she can. Just like at 30 I realized that of my mom.

I love you Hope Elizabeth Elfman and I hope that no matter what happens in your life you ALWAYS realize that.