Letters to Hope

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Today was a very bad day for me.

I miss him….. I miss him so much.

I miss his arms and his legs and his smile and the way he holds me.

I miss my legs raped around his and the way he rolls over me in the bed, I miss his loud breathing and his snoring,

I miss his smile and his smell and the way he walks.

I miss his laugh and the funny faces he makes,

I miss how he calls me baby and how he holds my hand when we walk  together,

I miss the way we made love and the way we fucked.

I miss him so much and it hurts so bad.

I can’t breath; I can’t stop crying I can’t stop that sick twisted smile that is not really a smile you get on your face that hurts your whole face.

I can’t breathe and feel like my heart is going to exploded.

I have Goosebumps all over my body and I just want him to wrap me up in his arms and tell me it is going to be ok……..and he has made so many promises so many statements of how he will change how much he loves me and he is never come through or fulfilled anyone of them and this hurts most of all.